My Mind is Telling Me Yes But ...
My mind is telling yes, but my body is telling me no. Sometimes plans just don't work out. I'm looking forward to walking a Roy Wilkins park after work with Jody!
We are eating right and trying to get our heart rate up and blood flowing. What better way to do it than a good brisk walk. Today I spent a day at work and by the time I travel home, I'm thoroughly exhausted☹️ Bummer because Jody and I are walking today! I call her and tell her I'm not going to make it. I don't want to disappoint her again, but I don't feel up to it. I've pushed myself at times to go walking, but most times I'm best after I have rested. No, I'm not lazy, and I'm sorry, but I'm physically not up to it. This is not an excuse. I really don't understand why I'm feeling so beat.
As I reflect on the last ten years or so, my emotional, physical, financial and Spiritual State, I realize that prior to 2008 I was very stable, across the board in every area of my life, emotionally with relationships enjoying raising my son, physically I felt good and looked good, traveled effortlessly and could buy virtually whatever I wanted within reason.
Spiritually, I was connected to the Holy Spirit and the work of the Lord. However, at different points I fell into traps, traps the enemy had set. Not realizing that compromise comes with a price. Still I love the Lord, but was I trusting him?
Not so much, today I no longer have relationships with some people and that is good, and others particularly with my family I am mending. Above all else my relationship with the Lord is pretty solid and I am working on it day by day. My physical condition is challenged because of the MS but I trust God, my financial condition is strained to the point I was purchasing food by credit card, and frivolously spending, as if it was ten years ago. I realize when you stay the course and do the work of the Lord, taking care of His business, God provides. When you find yourself dealing with somewhat of a downward spiral of events. Look to the Lord to guide you and strengthen you. “And he said unto me, My grace is sufficient for thee: for my strength is made perfect in weakness. Most gladly therefore will I rather glory in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me.”2 Corinthians 12:9 KJV
For when you are weak He is strong and by trusting Him you will be restored in Jesus name. Do nothing on your own accord but seek Him in all things. (Matt 6:33)
My son, do not despise the chastening of the LORD, Nor detest His correction; (Proverbs 3:11) NKJV